So my last post talked about how I needed a coven. I was not able to find any around my area and with the new world situation being able to meet up with others is going to be long ways from happening now.
I’ve been doing lots of research and participating on some Discord Groups where I found a friend studying to become a Druid. It peaked my interest and after looking more into it I decided to join. I am not sure where this path is going to take me but after studying a few lessons it feels like what I need right now.
I can’t wait to see where this goes and to share it with everyone interested in my story – so here we go!
For a while I’ve been a solitary witch. I enjoy the quiet days and rituals. I love making my own rules and spells. I love connecting to nature and commuting with nature when I feel like it.
Lately tho I feel like I am missing something… and I think it‘s the connecting to others that share my beliefs and interests. I have friends and family around but we have no where to similar beliefs and somedays I just want to talk to someone about signs the Universe is sending or how I happened to buy a crystal that I would need the next day.
I’ve thought about joining online covens but I also feel like that is not something that would work for me, specially if there is no way to really tell how old and what the participants really believe or do.
It’s also hard to find a Coven around here. I live in Maryland and I feel like there are no many groups around here… should I start one? How would I even start? So much to think about…
So since I was a child I’ve had more of a masculine energy. I was the kid who played boy games and fought with them. Chased them and beat them up with umbrellas…
I didn’t really found a feminine version of myself until about six years ago. I’ve heard about this book Spiral Dance by Starhawk and recently I got it for free from Thriftbooks! Score!
I started reading it a few days ago and I felt so connected to it. At one point I read the following paragraph which made me realize I am doing the right thing by getting closer to the Goddess- even if sometimes it makes me feel a little weak.
Alone, awesome, complete within Herself, the Goddess, She whose name cannot be spoken, floated in the abyss of the outer darkness, before the beginning of all things. And as She looked into the curved mirror of black space, She saw by her own light her radiant reflection, and fell in love with it.
She drew it forth by the power that was in Her and made love to Herself, and called Her “Miria, the Wonderful.” Their ecstasy burst forth in the single song of all that is, was, or ever shall be,and with the song came motion, waves that poured outward and became all the spheres and circles of the worlds. The Goddess became filled with love, swollen with love, and She gave birth to a rain of bright spirits that filled theworlds and became all beings.
But in that great movement, Miria was swept away, and as She moved out from the Goddess She became more masculine. First She became the Blue God, the gentle, laughing God of love. Then She became the Green One, vine-covered, rooted in the earth, the spirit of all growing things. At last She became the Horned God, the Hunter whose face is the ruddy sun and yet dark as Death. But always desire draws Him back toward the Goddess, so that He circles Her eternally, seeking to return in love.
All began in love; all seeks to return to love. Love is the law, the teacher of wisdom, and the great revealer of mysteries.
A Feri Creation Myth
With this beautiful quote I will leave you to think and remind yourself this New Years that you are love, and all we have to give is love. Love is enough.